cried myself to sleep last night.. woke up at 6am from a dream and cried again.. fell back asleep around 9. woke up feeling so.. well i cant explain de feeling. went online,couldn control myself and wanted to break into tears again.. left de hse and went to find ald at sch. cried through de journey there,i dun care if ppl are looking,guy then cannot cry meh?

walked around de cca fair.. bought a paddlepop at cheers.. paddlepop.. i wanted to cry.. jj went off for his lesson while me and ald went to t1 manpuku to sit down eat ice cream.. cried there.. sat there for some time until i stopped. walked around waiting for jj lesson to end and come find us. slacked whole day out at tamp..

walked to 201 busstop and sat there waiting for like 1hr+ for alden's 518. dunno y so dam long. then my bus 17 came and i left. jj walked home. went home ate dinner,gonna head to de showers aft this and cry,i cant hold it in much longer.. turning in early tonight.. cos im gonna cry again..

baby,i dunno if you'll be reading this but.. i wont be able to bring myself to hate u.. and i dun wan to in de 1st place,there's nth bout u for me to hate.. loving some1,is embracing her strengths,and covering her flaws. i dun hate u in de least,but im worried. i still care bout u.. i care de world bout u. no1 has ever made me feel like this.. if this dosen show my love for u,i dunno wat else will. i dun care be it years,decades,i'll still be waiting for u.. i can never let go off you no matter how hard i try.. i love you.. forever and ever.